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“h these cigarettes!” Porfiry Petrovitch ejaculated at last, having lighted one. “They are pernicious, positively pernicious, and yet I can’t give them up! I cough, I begin to have tickling in my throat and a difficulty in breathing. You know I am a coward, I went lately to Dr. B----n; he always gives at least half an hour to each patient. He positively laughed looking at me; he sounded me: ‘Tobacco’s bad for you,’ he said, ‘your lungs are affected.’ But how am I to give it up? What is there to take its place? I don’t drink, that’s the mischief, he-he-he, that I don’t. Everything is relative, Rodion Romanovitch, everything is relative!” “Why, he’s playing his professional tricks again,” Raskolnikov thought with disgust. All the circumstances of their last interview suddenly came back to him, and he felt a rush of the feeling that had come upon him then. “I came to see you the day before yesterday, in the evening; you didn’t know?” Porfiry Petrovitch went on, looking round the room. “I came into this very room. I was passing by, just as I did to-day, and I thought I’d return your call. I walked in as your door was wide open, I looked round, waited and went out without leaving my name with your servant. Don’t you lock your door?” Raskolnikov’s face grew more and more gloomy. Porfiry seemed to guess his state of mind. “I’ve come to have it out with you, Rodion Romanovitch, my dear fellow! I owe you an explanation and must give it to you,” he continued with a slight smile, just patting Raskolnikov’s knee. But almost at the same instant a serious and careworn look came into his face; to his surprise Raskolnikov saw a touch of sadness in it. He had never seen and never suspected such an expression in his face. “A strange scene passed between us last time we met, Rodion Romanovitch. Our first interview, too, was a strange one; but then... and one thing after another! This is the point: I have perhaps acted unfairly to you; I feel it. Do you remember how we parted? Your nerves were unhinged and your knees were shaking and so were mine. And, you know, our behaviour was unseemly, even ungentlemanly. And yet we are gentlemen, above all, in any case, gentlemen; that must be understood. Do you remember what we came to?... and it was quite indecorous.” “What is he up to, what does he take me for?” Raskolnikov asked himself in amazement, raising his head and looking with open eyes on Porfiry. “I’ve decided openness is better between us,” Porfiry Petrovitch went on, turning his head away and dropping his eyes, as though unwilling to disconcert his former victim and as though disdaining his former wiles. “Yes, such suspicions and such scenes cannot continue for long. Nikolay put a stop to it, or I don’t know what we might not have come to. That damned workman was sitting at...
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Let's Analyse the Pattern
Why This Matters
Connect literature to life
This chapter teaches readers to recognize when maintaining a lie becomes more destructive than facing the original problem.
Now let's explore the literary elements.
Key Quotes & Analysis
"I can't bear it any longer!"
Context: When he finally admits to himself that the psychological torture has become unbearable
This simple statement captures the human limit of enduring guilt and deception. It shows that our conscience has real power over our mental health and that we can't indefinitely suppress the truth.
"I murdered myself, not the old woman!"
Context: As he realizes the true cost of his crime
This reveals that wrongdoing destroys the perpetrator as much as the victim. Raskolnikov understands that in trying to prove he was above moral law, he actually destroyed his own humanity.
"What am I to do now?"
Context: Standing at the crossroads between continued deception and confession
This question reflects the moment when denial is no longer possible. It's the universal human experience of facing consequences we've been avoiding and realizing we must choose a path forward.
Thematic Threads
Psychological Burden
In This Chapter
Raskolnikov's mental and physical exhaustion from maintaining his facade finally overwhelms his ability to continue the deception
Development
Escalated from initial guilt and paranoia to complete psychological breakdown requiring confession for survival
Isolation
In This Chapter
His inability to connect authentically with others while carrying his secret drives him toward confession as the only path back to human connection
Development
Progressed from self-imposed distance to complete alienation, making confession necessary for any hope of relationship
Identity Crisis
In This Chapter
The gap between who he pretends to be and who he actually is becomes unsustainable, forcing a choice between false peace and authentic consequences
Development
Evolved from initial rationalization of his actions to complete fracturing of his sense of self
Truth
In This Chapter
Confession becomes not about moral awakening but about psychological survival—he needs to stop living a lie more than he needs to be forgiven
Development
Shifted from external fear of discovery to internal need for authenticity regardless of consequences
You now have the context. Time to form your own thoughts.
Discussion Questions
- 1
What finally pushes Raskolnikov to decide he needs to confess, and what does his physical and mental state tell us about the cost of carrying secrets?
- 2
Why does Dostoevsky show us that Raskolnikov isn't confessing because he thinks he was wrong, but because he can't handle the psychological burden anymore?
- 3
Think about someone you know who seemed exhausted or stressed - could they have been carrying the weight of maintaining a lie or hiding something important?
- 4
If you were advising someone who was burning out from keeping a secret, what questions would you help them ask to decide whether to come clean?
- 5
What does Raskolnikov's breakdown teach us about the relationship between our actions and our mental health, even when no one else knows what we've done?
Critical Thinking Exercise
Calculate Your Deception Tax
Think of a time when you had to maintain a lie or hide something significant (it doesn't have to be criminal - maybe you called in sick when you weren't, hid a purchase from your partner, or exaggerated your qualifications). Write down all the mental energy it required: planning what to say, remembering your story, avoiding certain people or topics, managing your anxiety about being caught. Now calculate whether the energy cost was worth what you were protecting.
Consider:
- •How much time did you spend each day thinking about or managing this deception?
- •What relationships or opportunities did you have to avoid or modify because of it?
- •If you had used that same mental energy on something productive, what could you have accomplished instead?
Coming Up Next...
Chapter 34: Raskolnikov's Choice
Raskolnikov prepares to take the step that will either destroy him completely or finally set him free. But first, he has one crucial conversation that will determine exactly how - and to whom - he'll reveal his terrible secret.
